Emotional

I really hate being emotional. I don't cry often but when I do it feels good and I have decided that crying doesn't mean emotional. I am learning that I am really just an emotional person. I feel with all my heart and mind, part of that is being a girl and the other part well I don't know, but I don't really like it. I don't like the raw feeling of emotion or the loneliness that it sometimes brings. I am a feircely loyal person and I thank Jesus for making me that way but it doesn't come without pain. I have had to learn that just because I am super loyal doesn't mean that everyone else is going to have that same loyalty to me, most of the time it doesn't phase me, but there are certain times of the month where it really bugs me. Couple that with crying and you just have me an emotional mess that nobody knows how to deal with because it isn't who I really am. I just want someone to love me unconditionally through my emotion without judging me or trying to fix the problem, just be with me. Oh wait...there is someone who does that for me, Jesus. Thank you Jesus for loving who you made even when I am ugly.